Guilty

I am not able to see Jazzel yesterday and today...yesterday went for boss's farewell dinner at Singapore flyer(oh ya, took the capsule thing, will post later)...and today going to meet up Helen and Geraldine for dinner..I am so used to see her everyday, so whenever i think of 2 days cannot see her, not going to visit her, the guilty feeling just flooded over me. And of cos dear dear also never go visit girl girl, i guess he feels awkward to go alone to the nanny's place and my mum's place. But at least call her mah, haiz..man is always like that. I will feel better if at least one of us can go visit Jazzel, i just feel she is like abandone child...just dump her at the nanny's place...sob sob. :-(
But again, am I too attached to Jazzel?? I realised now I can't bear to leave her alone with MIL over the weekends...even just go out for dinner. I believe she only want me to make her drink milk milk and rock her to sleep...nobody else can do that..am i having problem or wat?! Although am dying to go holidays, but again I cannot separate from jazzel lei..think i will go nuts by then..aiyoh..so difficult lah..

Anyway, am glad Jazzel is well care BUT also pampered by the nanny's family..guess wat? yesterday when i called up the nanny, she picked up the phone and said Jazzel not at home. Pieng! The nanny's husband brought Jazzel go ntuc...go gai gai...faint man!

Hope the time past faster so I can see Jazzel tomorrow...YAHOO!!!