Feeling down

(Edited on 9 Nov)
Feeling very down this morning after reading Charmaine's blog. Confirmed HAMA positive. Don't know who I can talk to, feel so depressed the whole journey in the train. Even think I should stop reading Charmaine's blog as it really affects my emotion. My day will go very happy whenever I read she is doing well with her treatment. My heart sank when I know she is suffering.

My mind just keep on rolling with all these nonsense. Start thinking what if this happened to my own kid?? Why should I bring my kid to this world and let them suffer?? I know I was not thinking right...

Dear Lord, I know life is full of obstacles and YOU are testing on us. While YOU are testing on us, please also give us strengths to fight. She is just a little girl who still has long journey to explore in her life. I am sure YOUR love will make things smoother eventually. Love you, Lord.

And now when I am writing, I know I can't stop reading Charmaine's blog. I won't have a peaceful mind each day without knowing how is she. She is just a stranger to me, but my heart goes to her. I guess this is so called 母性的天质吧！

p/s: I also need strength in daily life, still not doing well as a wife and mother. Feel so lousy :(

dd and me feel so relief when knowing Charmaine's scan is all cleared! Thanks be to God! Amen.

Daddy over mommy!

Usually daddy will leave home early in morning for work, but this week daddy is on course. So this was what happened this morning....

6:55am: Mommy woke Jazzel up. Princess still 赖床 (as usual)

7:00am: Jazzel saw daddy still at home. Without calling mommy first, she said "Daddy!!!"(can tell she was surprised to see daddy at home)

7:03am: Mommy picked Jazzel up from babycot
Mommy: Good morning Jazzel, can you give mommy a kiss?
Instead of usual morning kiss to mommy, she leaned forward to kiss daddy! (okie, fine!)

7:05am: Mommy changed diaper for Jazzel, but daddy took over (cut queue!)

7:10am: Mommy going to comb Jazzel's hair, but she ran away and want daddy to comb for her (Fine!)

While waiting for nanny to pick her up, she asked daddy and mommy to play with her. This was the ONLY time in this morning that she prefers both of us at the same time.

Conclusion: Daddy is over mommy today! (for the first time)

p/s: of coz when mommy scolding Jazzel, daddy is definitely over mommy at that moment. Am always the 黑脸 :(